Hi Myrrh. I'm not sure if I've ever posted to you before, but I do lurk on your thread sometimes. I just wanted to say I'm so very sorry to hear of your baby's death. This happened to us about 13 years ago, and I know that it hurts more than you would ever believe possible until you've experienced it. I must have shed gallons of tears that came from the bottom of my soul. I remember how much I felt like people were dismissing the depth of my sorrow, and that added to my frustration and anger. I remember feeling so terribly betrayed by my own body. and feeling like a failure. I would encourage you to give your self permission to grieve, no matter who tells you you shouldnt be so upset....I actually heard that from a nurse (I'm not overly fond of nurses these days!) in my dr's office, although the Dr herself held my hand and cried with me. It's ok and it's important to mourn the loss of your child. I might kind of play the devil's advocate here and mention that your H may be hurting more than you would guess, as well. When this happened to us, my H confided to me that he was so hurt that no one except our boss seemed to acknowledge that it was his child that died as well, and that hurt and upset him and angered him. I would not have known he was feeling that way if he hadnt told me, because he was keeping such a stiff upper lip and "taking care of" me... my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Deb
