The New Thread...

[Lyrael]

Thanks, GBO and Briget -
It's always good to hear from someone who has been there before. It is definitely no fun. I feel blessed that my son is two and healthy and full of life and energy. I know my body is capable of carrying a baby full-term, so someday I will be able to do it again.

So far my H has been incredibly sweet and understanding, so I haven't had to DB with him, because he seems to understand that I am sad. He also seconded your notion that the cleaning kick is probably the nesting instinct. I am trying to eat well, and I am hoping that sleeping will come more easily in the next few days. I can stay asleep once I get there, it's just hard to fall asleep.

I will have to take it a bit more easy, as I am going to work on Monday - early bedtime tonight! H and I have MC tomorrow morning at 11am - we keep forgetting what we are supposed to discuss between sessions - I think it is plands for our immediate future, so maybe we can talk a bit about that tonight (selling the house, etc, nothing R). I am helping H study some for his education class tonight, and that will probably be fun - we'll try to get some work done.

I am still doing my daily nap, just like i was when I was pregnant, and trying to take it easy - listening to music I like, watching movies with my S, doing fun things with family.

Last night we went to H's business partner's wedding, and I got all dolled up - it was at a car show, so there were lots of guys there, and a bunch "checked me out" or even smiled at me - that was kind of nice. I am really happy with my H and our relationship, and at this point, it's nice that things are solid enough between us so we can be there for each other. I need the time to be able to grieve.

It's always good to be reminded to take care of myself, because I tend to expect perfection from myself, and get frustrated when I can't deliver that.
Thanks, both of you,
Myrrh