Okay, here is a short list of things NOT to do when you start having those fears that things are going to go South again (translation: when you're freaking out for no reason and wonder if you can ever truft your H again):
1) Obsessively try to get in touch with your spouse. (No, I didn't do that - I called home and his work exactly twice. He was asleep at home when I left, and I think that's where he still is, probably.)
2) Be irritable and angry when you talk to him.
3) Visit the website www.gloryb.com - it's a forum for other women to post their stories.

I know some of the rest of you that have had experiences with infidelity know that the fear can come out of nowhere sometimes and just paralyze you. I am having one of those episodes right now, and trying to hold it together. I am going to find something to do to get my mind off of it.

Myrrh

One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.