Pam- Nope, didn't come off as harsh at all - it came across as a caring friend who was correcting what was a somewhat irrational train of thought - since you're right, I can't know everything my H feels.
Yes, sometimes I do feel guilt. In neither case did I deliberately get pregnant to trap my H, and I guess with this current pregnancy, it would only be that way if I was insisting he move home and reconcile right away. I have not done that.
Instead, I am working away at my IC and our MC, trying to get a handle on myself and learn to control the expression of my feelings. The best thing is, I AM making progress. My IC pointed out to me that the progress I see as tiny and possibly unsatisfactory is, from her perspective, a huge leap forward. I am learning that my happiness is up to me, as is my calm. I am much more likely to journal my "freak-outs" or vent them here than I am to share them with my H.
I am glad I put the feelings out there, if only to get another perspective on them, Pam - it really helped me.
Love you bunches! Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
