Sage- Thanks again for the great info on beginning meditation. I want to order the Beginning Meditation tapes for myself - I think a daily habit of meditation could be really beneficial.
As for diet - I HAVE underestimated the effects of not eating enough/the right kinds of foods on my mood. I made a serious effort this weekend to eat small meals throughout the day, and to eat lots of fresh fruit and vegetables, and guess what? I felt more calm and stable.
As for exercise - well, I have not a lot of energy what with the pregnancy and chasing Salmost2 (17 days until his birthday!). But I think a good place to start would be with a twice-weekly walk on some of the many trails we have in various parks here. It's a small start, but I think a good one, especially for the nights when my H isn't visiting and I need to have things to do. Plus, a walk in the woods is always good for refocusing, I think.
My focus is on calming and soothing myself, and finding some inner peace. It seems that as I do that, not only my M, but my life smooths, or at least my reactions to it do. My biggest problem right now is not my M or my H, but my family being extremely judgmental of my H and of me for simply spending time together, or still wanting to be a family.
They judge him not only because of bad decisions he truly has made, but also at other times like when he brought over videos of our trip to Arkansas and of his older son - they thought that was awful, and made fun of him (to me) and my aunt deliberately poked fun at my stepson and his mother's name - they thought my H was being disrespectful to me because my stepson's mother was in the tapes!
I am working with my IC on getting out from under my family's negative influence, without being cruel or confrontational. But I skipped the Father's Day cookout because my aunt made it clear that my son's father was not welcome. No one was very happy with me. I wasn't unkind to anyone, I just declined to go.
*Sigh* Oh well, another day, another issue. I actually feel pretty peaceful at the moment, though.
Hugs to all, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
