Okay, folks - Myrrh has had a lightbulb moment...drumroll please... I need social contact to feel balanced, happy, and satisfied with my life, and I don't just mean social contact with my H. I can't be happy and be isolated. So I am going to be planning more activities into my schedule like the women's car care class tonight (which was very fun and informative) and the late night cropping session tomorrow evening - which I now have child care for - thanks to my mom. I need to get out and do things...it's part of having a balanced life. I don't need to sit at home all the time feeling sorry for myself - I can go out and do fun and contructive things!
This may sound really simplistic to some, but just getting out tonight, even though I didn't know anyone there, really boosted my PMA and brought back my centered, "okay" feeling. I have talked to Dustin via IM a bit tonight, but didn't feel upset or tense, and I don't have the urge to chase him in any way or to start a fight - I am actually on my way to bed and a peaceful sleep (keep your fingers crossed on the peaceful part!).
The social, fun part of my life is something I have neglected for a long time...this might honestly be very influential in getting me back on track. It sure makes me feel good! Good night, all - and as usual, lots of love... Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
