Okay, I continue to let my out-of-control thoughts get the best of me - H and I had a fight via phone (phones are NOT, apparently, a good wa for us to communicate). It was my fault, because I had an issue, and I should have waited (I need to borrow the Underdog 24-hour rule), and I didn't - I just called and sounded critical and demanding, and he responded in kind, etc.

So what is the plan today? Well, I am going to try and just leave it alone. Leave him alone. Stop picking fights for attention when I am lonely -I need to add some evening activities to my life so I can keep busy and out of his hair.

Today - check out a program that offers weekly classes for moms - free and they have childcare. They meet every Thursday, and that is one of my problem days. I am also going to get information on a prenatal exercise class that meets Mon-Thurs - and I would go even on the nights H is over - it's only an hour, and would probably be good for me, without being exhausting.

So those two phone calls are on the agenda for today - I am still struggling with building a good, full life for myself - too much sitting at home and stewing about my sitch is not working for me. I seem to do better keeping my focus away from my H when I have something of my own to focus on.

Okay - lol - made the call about the classes. Tonight's is on basic car care, oil changes, etc - the classes are anything from parenting to investment, and I could definitely use this one.

I think on Friday nights I am going to institute a movie night or a family/friend visit, and Saturdays will be church. Of course, since it's summer, there is also always the pool. All this stuff gets over early enough for me to get some rest and be ready for each day!

I am going to try and do better today - that is all I can do.
Hugs,
Myrrh

One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.