Pam! Hello - you know I always love to see your smiling face. I am feeling better about life in general than I have in a long time. I am doing lots of great work in IC, and hopefully MC will be a good experience for us.
The strangest thing is happening...I am working on me and my self-esteem, and the more I do that, the easier it is to keep my emotions under control, and the less angry I am. I am learning about boundaries and how they protect me emotionally, and I am actually starting to be pretty happy with myself and my life.
My family continues to put in their two cents-my grandmother: I hope you know your parents' situation and yours are different. They have 23 years of history, and you have to put some effort into a marriage for it to be worth anything." Hey, Grandma, thanks for the vote of confidence!
But it doesn't bother me. I am stubborn, independent, and I make my own decisions. And that's okay. Right now I choose to have my H in my life, and I will keep things the way they feel and work best for me until I re-evaluate and decide something needs to be different.
I am working on ME! And life is really, really good - despite all the snags - marital problems, no money, job/boss stresses. It doesn't have to mean I am depressed - I look at my son, and I smile. I breathe in the scent of flowers on an evening breeze, and I smile. I look at myself in the mirror, and I smile. Because darn it, everything is going to be okay. No matter what everything turns out to be.
Wow! I was just going to post a few goals quick, and look what it turned into! Anyway, here are the weekend goals: 1)get the shtuff cleaned off the front porch 2) Rent some more movies tonight and relax with Salmost2 3) Take some space for myself this weekend to breathe and just BE (thanks to Pam - I think about that phrase all the time now!).
I am going out of town on Monday with my brother and sister - a day of younger generation family fun minus my little squirt - he'll be at grandma and grandpa's. That and movie night and Saturday evening church should be enough fun stuff to get me through the weekend.
Peace is the goal! Love to all, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
