Been lurking all day. I'm working away from my office for the next few days. I have access to the Internet but can't post as I'm meeting and greeting and people all around me LURKING.
Pattie--No I don't have to go to all of these events. Can't figure out the "right now" thing, has something to with when H is on edge, is struggling with something. He was all over the place Sunday, like he wanted to get away. I do like to have things to do, but am rethinking who is important in my life now. I think it might be time to let my other family, friends take a back seat for awhile. It's gives me a peaceful feeling just thinking about it. Need to my family first, H and Sons. Something I will be working on.
Tonight H was edgy too. H called while I was shopping, said he was still at work--I think he was making that up--and I asked if he was coming our way (home) and he said "why" to which I replied I want to see you.
OH!!! OH!!!! I bought a new dresser!! Have had the current set since the 80's so figured it was time to update the bedroom. The next thing I'd like to get is a headboard made out of log. Some day, when we win the lottery , my dream home is a log home. So might as well start getting ready
S and I got home, H had already drank a beer and was sitting the living room with his work clothes/boots on thus the reason I think he was calling from home while I was shopping.
We ate dinner, chatted a bit with H and S during dinner, H had another beer with dinner. I had one and mentioned to H that I had found it in the frig and did he see. H said yep was going to drink it after this one.
Got up started cleaing up dishes. Asked H if he wanted to go to the local car show, my bro has a car there and H said no, of course not. H then asked if I was going, I said no I'm just going to hang around the house, I was asking to see if you wanted to go with us.
H mentioned something about buying a new truck and then a new boat to follow. Can you tell H is still looking for outside sources for his happiness? Thinks he has to buy something big.
H then started talking about selling the boat he just bought that if my brother didn't want it then he knew someone who did. (H had to call my brother this morning about something and H commented that "B didn't want to talk to me, he must not like me anymore and that B was looking for a new boat). There could be any number of reasons and I KNOW my brother didn't act like that, he's the nicest guy.) H then said "and you know who she is" I ignored that statement, too. H said "I don't think I can talk OW out of it either"...ignored it so not sure why H would say something like that. OW bought a boat last June and as far as I know sold it or is selling it since the reason she bought it was to keep my H.
H then said maybe you should talk to her? (about what I don't know H just threw it out there) I said why, does she want to talk to me. H said "I don't know, I've never asked her" I said well ask her and if she wants to talk let me know. I said this in a dead calm, serious, matter of fact voice. Was taking H serious even though I know he was pushing buttons.
So H is now gone, "had to go, see ya." I said "bye" and he left to go whereever.
