H showed about before 8 am yesterday morning which was early, came in a like a storm saying something like he was going to do something with S, but it was supposed to rain. I was in the kitchen kneeling on the floor talking to S when S decided to run and hide. Said hi to H. H didn’t say a word about where he was, but I know he was drinking somewhere.
H started questioning me on what I was doing Sunday. I said S and I were thinking about going to a baseball game, H said it’s supposed to rain. We kind of hung out like it was a normal Sunday morning, well whatever normal is these days. H asked if I bought the paper I hadn’t, but went down to get one while H was in the bathroom....a sign (from above ) that’s he has been drinking.
Son had some mosquito bites from the night before and H said “why didn’t you put spray on him” to which I said I did, but they are bad this year. Then he asked if they were biting me…like I protected myself and not my S. H is so critical and told me I was a “bad” mom. I said do not say that I am a bad mom, the word “bad” is all encompassing. It really doesn’t bother me a whole lot, as I know I’m NOT a bad mom. I just don’t want our S to hear stuff like that.
Came back, ate breakfast at the counter. H said something about going to Bass Pro, a two hour drive, let’s go now!! I said I was going to do the treadmill could we please wait. H said no, then we’re not going then. Said he didn’t want to wait if we didn’t go NOW we weren’t going, blah, blah. So I said oh well and went and pounded the treadmill.
So I did that came up and H said are you ready? I said “yeah can I go like this, sweaty (especially my shirt with bad hair” and I just smiled a big old smile!!! H just looked at me and I went to get ready.
H just tries and tries to push my buttons, doesn’t realize they don’t work anymore. Laurie is this what you mean “that I can see right through H?" H was all "over the board" yesterday morning, it was like watching a tornado...up in the air, then down on the ground trying to destruct to keep from self-destructing. I think H knows he's out of control, but can't figure out how to stop himself.
On our drive H had asked if I had used my golf pass for a course near our house yet. I said no, I can never find anyone to golf with to which H said "what about me?" I was a little surprised, then H said something about "if you don’t start doing things with ME, then I’ll go to OW"..oh yeah big threat. I said I’d really like to go with you, I didn’t think you wanted to go, and I like going with him as he can help me with my game. H wants to do something with me...hmmmmm.
H then brought up the weekend we didn’t go up north. Saying that he didn’t HAVE to work that Saturday…WHAT THE? That I didn’t want to go, I change my mind, blah, blah. WHAT THE?
When we got back we cooked out, H stopped and bought groceries, as in decent buns for our brats. We had a nice evening together too.
When we got home, H couldn’t find his cell phone. He was trying to accuse me of “doing something with it” I said the last time I saw it was when you had in the cup holder and then moved it to put your soda in the cup holder. So H was all in a panic, I came in the house, thought too bad if you lost it. BESIDES, he could have used mine, switched the number over, I wasn’t worried. Well he DID find it and I just said “hallalejuh.” You would have thought he’d lost a million dollars.
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Slowly posted this to Pattie. I found it very enlightening as I believe this is WHAT H is doing.
) that’s he has been drinking. 
H just looked at me and I went to get ready. 
