Ohhh KK you're so nice, I'm so happy you stopped by.

I know my sitch is kind of hard to watch/read about isn't it? Imagine how I feel, I'm one of the characters and I know my role well!!

I feel so darn good today, my PMA is back up. I think I was suffering from PMS-mania the last few days.

I slept well last night, stayed up late. I felt like a kid who's parents were out of town and I could stay up as late as I wanted to!

H returned my call on his way to work this morning. Asked me what I wanted...said I wanted to know if you were coming home last night.

H told me about his day, like it's normal or like everyone's days are like his. He was rained out, done at noon. Had to go get estimates for his truck, it was damaged at his job on Monday. H said didn't I tell you about it? I said no. H then stopped at his bar..noonish and drank till sixish (asked me if it was there on my drive home from work--I go right by there, I said no I went the other way figured it would be backed up due to construction) and went to OW's. I asked him "why?" and he said "I've been going back and forth for the last year and half except it was more last year" well duhhh he was living with OW! Until one of you gets sick of it. I said aren't you getting sick of it and H said "yes!" Obviously he hasn't had enough. Said he was drinking Tuesday night, too.!

I said I was standing for this marriage. H said what marriage went into the usual. Then asked if I needed him to change a lightbult or something, thinks I only want him around to do things for me. I said I don't need you to change a light bulb, I can do that myself, I can hire someone if I have to, I don't need you to change lightbulbs.

Talked a little more then he said he had to go. Calls back a few minutes later wants me to get some information from his paystubs, his rate is wrong. So I gave him the info.

I take S to sitter. I'm on my way to work. H calls again, wants to talk to S. I said well he's at N's, you can call him there. Asked him if he was working, it's raining! I said to him, well I'm on my way tto work, I hope you have a good day, smile and be happy."

Am I nuts or what this guy doesn't know what he has does he? or what he COULD have. Okay I popped my own balloon, have to get work.

My niece's graduation is tonight. H is picking up S. After graduation there's a dinner at a local restaurant. H asked me "when I was going to be home, too!!" WHAT THE! He is just something else. Of course, I just act like everything is normal, but I'm thinking I should maybe be a little later, stop and have a drink somewhere by myself. Just to be able to say I did it...who knows.

I don't think there's anything I can say anymore that's going to get through to him, make a difference. I'll just have to wait on the curb. Definitely marguarita tonight!
Cathy