Go back and read HB again. When her husband hit this stage, she had to become a teenager again and they had a great time.
The other thing that you must start working on is shoving the devil out of your head. When he starts putting the doubts in your head about your h, you have to start stepping on him. Otherwise, he will continue to use them to drive a wedge between the two of you.
This is going to be a whole new ball game for you. Before you were detaching and doing the things that were necessary to detach. Now you have to work on the areas that bring you back together, but keep you independent.
So difficult to explain, but I know exactly what I'm trying to say. You are still holding onto the things that he did, but not as unforgiveness, but as fear. There is a book on Rejoice Marriage Ministries that talks about After the Prodigal Returns. Very good book and might be very helpful.
Remember, just as you trusted the Lord to help you through the detaching and to guide you there, now you have to trust him to help you to do the reattaching. He is not going to let things happen again that are going to hurt you, but he will give you a heads up in advance in order to help you to work through them.
He has already told you several different times that you h is not going to leave you. Now trust him with that and ask him what it is that you need to do in order to make your h feel secure. He has already showed you a couple of places that you should have said something different then what you said. So you know that he is there leading you and trying to help you.
Once you get your h to feel secure, then you will feel secure. Now get on it and stop beating yourself up and stop worrying about whether or not your h is going to stick around. The Lord has already told you he is. Now trust the Lord.
