I guess I should just plan on going, that we are all going. It is a control thing, as I said he does this all the time, I'm not going here or there, so and so never comes to see me, why should I go, blah, blah and then the day of H is miracuously going.
My niece is graduating next Friday and there is a dinner after and then a party the next day. Right away H says "I'll make sure I have plans to do something else" This is my favorite niece so I will be attending everything, SS20 will be coming to the party on Saturday. When I told SS20 that H wasn't going to nephew/cousin's graduation party last weekend, SS20 said "What?!" "Isn't it a given?" Even SS20 knows it doesn't matter if you want to go or not, some activities/events are a "given", you go. When I was younger, my dad used to say "you don't HAVE to do anything, BUT you're going" and that was he meant.
I should also mention that H has been acting really strange lately, good strange. Like he likes me or wants to date me..in a flirty, teasing way...like a teenager. He drove into the driveway last night and I was outside on the phone with a friend. I made eye contact with him and he had this "interested" look in his eye, like those construction workers have when you walk by their site, so I gave him this "eyebrow raising half smile."
He asked me to go pick up a prespription for him last night. He dropped it off and didn't want to wait. I said that's fine, H gave me his checkbook and said to finish writing out the check when I got there.. I DID not snoop through it either.
He's been back in our bed since he came back from up north. Last night he asked me if I wanted to set my alarm for 4:30, he has to start at 5:30 now. I said that's fine, I've been getting up early, H said I'll sleep downstairs and said it few other times, I kept reassuring him it was fine. I think he was waiting for me to say I liked having him back in are bed or something like that and I didn't, blew it. When I came to bed, he woke up and came close to me, like he was cold..I said "are you cold" to which H said "yes" and got up and got another blanket to put on the bed..duhhh...I'm so dense sometimes. He wanted to be by me. Oh well one day I'll get it.
Again, I'm a little off balance here with H drawing closer, again. H is different and I'm not used to this new H yet. Then again thinking this is too good to be true, somethings going to give, somethings going to send him back to where he was.
Maybe it's that he's getting more comfortable being out of the tunnel? I don't know, but it's throwing me. The last few days I've been expecting him to not come home after work, to all of a sudden decide he has to "go somewhere" once he does get home. When he was writing out the check last night, we were by his truck and kept thinking he was going to give me the checkbook and get in his truck and leave.
I DID not snoop through it either.
