WELL IT ALL COME OUT THIS WEEKEND! WHEN MY H DIDN'T COME HOME LAST TUESDAY HE WAS AT A STRIP CLUB. IT GETS WORSE. HE WAS THERE FROM 11AM UNTIL 10:30PM THEN WENT HOME WITH A GAL THAT WORKS THERE! HE KEPT HER NUMBER ON HIS CELLPHONE SO i CALLED HER. SHE SAID HE TOLD HER HE WAS NOT MARRIED, WENT HOME WITH HER AND THEY MADE OUT. DIDN'T HAVE INTERCOURSE BUT MADE OUT.
I'M SO SICK!!! H SAID HE WAS SORRY. SAID HE WILL NOT GO TO THOSE PLACES ANYMORE AND THAT HE FEELS HORRIBLE ABOUT IT. HE WISHES HE COULD BLAME IT ON DRINK BUT THAT WOULD ONLY BE AN EXCUSE.
I TOLD HIM THAT IF I FIND OUT HE'S GONE AND DONE THIS AGAIN THAT I WILL BE OUT OF THE MARRIAGE SO FAST HIS HEAD WILL SPIN. I WILL NOT LIVE WITH SOMEONE THAT SNEAKS AROUND, TELLS ME I'M CRAZY CAUSE HE'S ACTING WEIRDLY, IS BASICLY A LIAR AND A CHEAT.
HE'S BEEN ON THE SOFA FOR 2 DAYS NOW AND I CAN'T SEEM TO GET UP THE NEVRE TO INVITE HIM TO OUR BED. I SAID I WILL BE USING CONDOMS WITH HIM UNTIL I CAN FEEL SECURE IN OUR RELATIONSHIP. BUT NOT TO HURRY ME INTO SEX BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF HIM TOUCHING ME, MAKES ME FEEL SICK.
I FEEL SO SAD TODAY AND WONDER WHAT THE HELL AM I SAVING HERE? IS THIS ONLY A TEMPORARY LAPSE IN JUDGMENT OR IS THIS TRULY HIS CHARACTER? IT'S HARD TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT SOMEONE THAT LEFT ME WORRIED AT HOME WHILE HE WAS AT THE STRIP CLUB PUTTING HIS HANDS AND MOUTH ALL OVER SOME OTHER WOMAN!!!
