I keep a calander too. However, she doesn't know and I feel that it would just push her further away to tell her about my record keeping. April 12! I am not pushing for or instigating sex since I am so sick of rejection. I am however, trying to work on our relationship in every way non-sexual. I am just curious to see how long it is until she realizes that I have a penis - since she knows that sex and a healthy sexual relationship is my greatest emotional need. I know that she thinks that we play often enough and she feels that it is a healthy amount of sex. She also knows that I am unhapy with the frequency and quality of our play! The situation demands that I stay and work on it even though I want to run screaming (and naked) from the whole ordeal!
"As soon as somebody falls in love, all the wits seem to dribble out the bottom of his head." Garion from Castle of Wizardry. And Jeff is obviously in love.
