slowly and honeypot, thanks for your input. I think the tiredness stems from the length of time I have been at this, combined with the fact that I am the only one in my household who has to go to work everyday. Oldest will hopefully be getting a job soon, youngest and H are in college full time and I know that they have rough schedules but it is not the same. Plus I am in the legal field (paralegal) and with all of Govenor Schwarznegger's reforms, my firm may well be out of business soon (he does not like lawyers and we do workers comp and personal injury both targets of his). When I bought my house I bought it with the intention that it would only be myself and youngest son and eventually just me. Now all 4 of us are there and it is small and there is no where to go for peace and quite. I have a vacation coming up in early july so maybe that will help.
Dont think H would go for sex therapy but might be receptive to our counselor if she got on the topic. He is not too fond of "books" but if I insisted, he might so I am going to look this weekend to see if anything hits the mark so to speak. It is an interesting idea that he may not be able to see me in all roles and has the mom, wife thing seperate from the lover. Only he knows and he is not telling. Should I just come out and ask? It just seems like I need to do something different as it is the same conversation with the same excuses and promises over and over again
