I am trying to be patient, but we are have been doing this for so long now I am tired. I want someone who wants me it is that simple. I didnt go through all of this to settle for less than what these OW got from my H or less than I need. I have read sex starved marriage. I will look into the passionate marriage book this weekend. the power struggle sounds interesting but I am just afraid it is a lack of physical attraction to me as why settle when you can have women 10 years younger who have better bodies? Just in a down phase right now and the last month I have gotten zero attention because H has been studying for finals and doing projects for the end of the semester. I am proud of all he has accomplised in school, he made it to his senior year in college in just a little over two years. I am just afraid that once he starts working he will give me the speech that he tried, but it is not working. He is not too into reading these books with me and in fact asked that I get rid of them all as every time he saw them he felt guilty. I put them all away for just me when I need them. We have counseling next thursday maybe something will come up there. Just trying to figure out how to get thru the days now without this huge depression. Dont know if I should bring it up again with H when he is done this week with school or just let it go. I am afraid if I let it go, we will never have an intimate relationship again. today is a poor poor me day. thanks for being here for me.
