Quote: I deal with thoughts of "if I was bigger, better,...blah, blah, blah"
Poor Barney . I'll answer the "does size matter?" question for you. Bigger is better for some things like doing it standing up, smaller is better for others like giving head so something in the middle is best for all around versatility
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
It still depends on personal preferences. If you are not particularly "endowed" and worry about how your partner will rate your "package" make up for that with talent, enthusiasm, and skill. Some women prefer feeling "fuller." Some would rather have talent over the size issue. Again, individual preferences.
Are you using "men's" measurements, or "women's" measurements? That makes a difference, too.
Quote: Sounds as if she has no idea what unconditional love really is. _____________________
I've always thought that, but then I'll second guess myself and wonder if I'm just being selfish.
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Quote: I know that it is mostly him, but sometimes I just have those doubts, too. ___________________
Here's where you're wrong, IMO. It's not mostly him, it's ALL him. The only reason you're getting a D is because he's not willing to change. It's not about your mistakes or what you could have done better. If you had never made a mistake and always done things in the absolute best way, he still wouldn't be willing to change!
Who knows if he'll wake up after you're gone and realize what he had? Either way, he's a complete fool. I'll never understand why any man wouldn't thank God 1,000 times a day for his HDW and treat her so well (in and out of bed) that she'd never think of leaving.
__________________ Quote: Deep down, I know better, but sometimes the rejection really cuts deep. _________________________
I know what you mean. I hurt for you just reading it. I'm sorry anyone has to feel that. It is so unnecessary. In fact, I believe it's only a S's pride that causes it. (It's certainly your H's pride that keeps him from being willing to change when he knows it's hurting you.)
Mike - cyberland friend, but you couldn't trust me in RL
Mike - cyberland friend, but you couldn't trust me in RL Jo - Exactly why I did not tell you I was in South Cali until I got back from vaction. LOL ______________________________________
Oh, I meant if I wasn't Mr. Responsibility. I have too much personal integrity to cheat on either my W or my kids. You could parade naked in front of me in a hotel room where nobody knew either of us and I wouldn't do anything.
As far as my insecurities are concerned, they are ALL related to not being wanted. I deal with thoughts of "if I was bigger, better,...blah, blah, blah". Other HDM here have indicated they have the same thoughts, so I guess it's common. That doesn't really help, though.
I'll add on some thoughts here. I truly believe all men worry about size. I have some strong preferences.... but must say that really hard is what does it for me. Sometimes, men have made comments about not being very well endowed. Most of the time they have been somewhat accurate in their assessment.
Bear with me while I'm extremely technical and realistic about this. I can touch my cervix-- without fully inserting my finger. I can touch my tounsils equally easily. This means that anything as long as my finger, well, frankly is long enough. Girth/thickness is another issue, and there, a finger is not sufficient
You can also do amazing things with adjusting positions for depth, fullness if size is a realistic (versus imaginary) issue. All that said, I know that it's hard to not feel wanted, and when that's the case, it's natural to try and figure out the "if onlys". I've thought if only my breasts were bigger, my hips were smaller, I tried a Brazilian, etc etc..... but deep down know that none of it matters when the important stuff is okay.
Never try to teach a pig to sing. It wastes your time, and annoys the pig.
SC bravely posted: I truly believe all men worry about size. _________________________
This must be true with all the "enlargement" products out now. Most of the enlargement products are "beefing up" (sorry) the statistics for what is normal. They claim that 6" is average (normal) when the scientific studies indicate that it's closer to 5.25". Most studies agree that the average girth is 1".
The porn industry is blamed for the modern day notion that a guy has to be 8"x4". (I hear that those are the guys that get showcased. )
I appreciate your honesty, SC. Although I've questioned/doubted myself on every issue under the sun, this is one that I really can't do anything about. I have what I have. My biggest fear is the "use it or lose it" thing. If that's true, I can expect to wake up one morning and find that it fell off during the night.
Mike - When I purchased an enlargement kit they sent me a short rope and a brick.
All men worry about this. Even my LDH who gets nothing but encouragement and positive reinforcement has wondered about this. I have to agree with SC on the "hardness" issue. My H doesn't have any "problems" getting or staying hard (this is one of the things that confuses me) in fact he's one of those guys who can stay pretty hard for a little while after he orgasms (quite convenient) but because I have certain insecurities due to my current relationship, I would need some reassurance that it wasn't my fault if I was involved with a guy with erection difficulties.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
. I'll answer the "does size matter?" question for you. Bigger is better for some things like doing it standing up, smaller is better for others like giving head so something in the middle is best for all around versatility 
