Update-May 26th

Thanks to all the well wishers, even Mojo who finds a way to insult me with a compliment.

I've had the feeling since Saturday that something wasn't right about this, but I've sure been enjoying the peace in the house. Yesterday my W emailed me to ask if we could try the Hugging Till Relaxed that PM talks of. I thought either she's read that far now or she's going from what I told her on Saturday. So, I skimmed the HTR chapter before heading home to "do it right".

She broke it off very quickly and I mentioned it. She hugged again but broke it off quickly again. It was like she hadn't asked for it at all. I continued my self-soothing (I was doing this for me anyway) and we had a nice evening, with only touching being me rubbing W's back while watching TV.

This morning, I just knew something wasn't right about this. So, I asked my W to see her copy of PM so I could see how far she had read. She asked why and I said that I'd like to read along with the chapters she's reading like I did with the HTR. I said that it would help me to be at the same "PM" place as her.

Eventually she told me that she lied to me about having PM. She read a bit of mine one night while I was out with the kids. She said she intended to get her own copy but hasn't, and that she lied because she was afraid to tell me that she had read my copy since I had made some personal notes in it.

I'm back at square one again. She's doing things today to make it seem that she really wants to make changes, but I've seen them all before. The pattern is that it will last for a few days, until she gets over feeling guilty because she lied, then it will be over.

It's a good thing that I was differentiated enough not to get my hopes up about this Saturday because I'd really feel bad today if I had.

So, thanks again to everyone but I guess this was a false alarm. Sorry.

Mike - I'm not whining, it's just the sound of me being played