What advice do you have for me in regaurds to trying to get W over OM? He walked out on her twice! I am still here. Somedays are good, but then there are days like today and yesterday when it doesn't seem to matter what I do, she just isn't happy. A lot of things have returned to our life, but a lot of things have entered as well. I was never jealous or controlling before, I let her go where she wanted with whomever she wanted. Then the trust was breached.
I feel it is unfair that I have to walk on egg shells. SHe has a lot more to lose in this than I do. On days like today I feel it would be better to throw in the towel and let her go. I don't care where, I just know that I would be able to go back home and be with my family who loves me dearly. Why is it so hard for her to see the good she does have before her? I am a good guy. I work hard for my W and S (4). But now I am an unemployed emotional wreck. When she is pining over him do I just give her space? Or do I offer a hug? She won't talk to me and she won't share her feelings. Even though we have had several talks about how important this is to a R, let alone a marriage.
Don't get me wrong, I know she wants to try to make it work, but she still has contingency plans. SHe can go back to her job up until July 1st, what pressure that is to me. I just don't know, and I feel so helpless. I guess until she makes that final decision we are going to continue on the roller-coaster. What fun...
