Kat,
Everyday wife seems to get a little better, but unfortunatly I faced major setbacks yesterday. I had still been talking with OM's W and she had been passing me information about my W and OM. She had told me that on Saturday the two hand kissed and hugged in the parking lot at work and that my W had called OM on the way home from work to ask if he was going to follow her on the highway until she had to turn off so they could talk. All this happened the day after I had left work early to check and see if the two were still rendevouzing after work. I found both cars parked together, OM had punched out of work early and was going home, showed he was trying to avoid my W. I stopped him and talked to him. He told me to take her home and be good to her. I told him I had always been good to her so I guess I would have to be great in order to keep her interest. We shook hands and left. I went in and told his W about the early departure and all of the other stuff, she said it was a good move on my part (I of course know better). She also said that he had told her that he wanted to ML with her that night. OM was very upset about the fact that I had driven all the way down to OM's W place to try and make her feel a little better because she was so depressed over the affair. We just went to the park and talked and I told her afterwards, that it was possible to get out and leave the pain behind. I just tried to show her what she could do to try and get her mind off of the affair. She had been doing very well. I said it looked like she was in the clear. The information that she gave me the next day devastated me. It seemed like my W was chasing him around. I have also had the added stress of her period coming late, I have never wanted her period to come so badly in my life!

Right now the hardest thing is knowing that this scumbag thought so much of my wife to not only back out on her twice, but to ML to his W only because he thought I had gone down to sleep with his W. I'm not that type of a guy. I also think it is hard waiting for W to bring intimacy back to our R. I know W is going through a tough time. I guess the more patient I am with her, wait for the move, and keep supporting her through this the better it is for me.

She has gotten a tone of foot rubs and has even sat on my lap a couple of times. I just keep on listening to Hoobastank's "The Reason" and Nickleback's "Someday" (para your request). She is still here, she is trying to make it work, and she wants to start our lives over again back near her parents. I think she needs support from them, but what kind of advice is good from them? THey are going to talk a lot about how great of a guy I am. Do you think that will be okay? They have stayed in constant contact with me through this, and she has done the opposite of what they have told her to do, aside from this move. Regaurdless, getting her away from here will help. Although over the last few days she has really reassured me that she is done with him.

Yesterday we had a rough time because of what OM's W had told me, and she said that it was all lies. I told her I had a hard time believing her, then she said that she and her friend at work had talked and they both felt that OM was doing this to try and get me to leave (If that was his plan it almost worked because I had a bag packed for my S and I and I was going to go and confront her on it while my S stayed with a friend). W and friend felt that OMwas spreading rumours through his W to try and get me to leave my W. W was near tears. W said it was over and she just wanted to work on our R. Of course this is what convinced me of her pain and sincerity. SHe said she was sorry for what she put me through. She wished she could take it back but couldn't. I didn't cry, but I feel like it typing this up. I finally have my wish for a second chance and I keep on pouring cold water over her efforts to try and get her feelings back for me.

So now I just have to sit back and make it easier for her. We went to dinner last night at the Casino she works in and I was very uncomfortable. It was hell. The food was very good and afterwards we went bowling. She reached out a couple of times and it was a good time. Boy do I have a long road ahead of me. After these next 8 days we will be away from the casino, and most of the nightmares that have come from that. 10 days from now we will be back where our love was very strong, and the stimulus of the best part of our relationship will be center stage. I keep praying that this will be good enough to get her back into my corner. I know I still have a long way to go before I will be in the clear, but for now she is still here, still sleeps in the same bed with me, and sometimes...she even smiles . That sure makes me feel good.

Thanks for listening Kat,

CSR