Thank you. I will look for the book. So you think he doesn't "respect" me? Stupid question. How could he do the things he does while still respecting me? You know, I don't think he respects himself much. And about self-soothing, etc, yes, I like being alone with myself. I enjoy my own company, I can be alone and not be lonely. He on the other hand, cannot be alone without being engulfed in lonliness. That's a big part of the problem. I have an aging parent 2 states away and want to be there as much as possible. That means leaving him here alone, and lonely and drawn to the ow. How can I leave with any kind of comfort if I know that he will probably be with her while I'm gone. How can I continue to show passion and willingness to ML when I am wondering if she was in my bed while I was gone? It's a real romance killer. I wonder if while he's reaching for me in his sleep if it's really her he wants. He's even admitted once when I asked, that he didn't really know it was me at first. 1 point for an honest, but hurtful, answer. I don't want to bring you all down, you seem to have a great rapport here, and I appreciate your humor. Thanks for taking the time. By the way, female on top sounds rather dangerous, I almost got a black eye from being "boosted" a little to enthusiastically into the headboard. Try explaining that to my already skeptical girlfriends!
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