Yipes... this board is beginning to fuel my submissive fantasies. Thank you for the welcome and at some point I will be able to share more of my story but for now it will have to come out in bits and pieces. I thought this would be easier to do, given the anonymity of the board ( Journey is not my real name, hehe) yet I am finding it difficult to share. This may be due to my basic overall personality or perhaps I am embarrassed over the fact that I was the LD spouse for many yrs. Thanks again for your support. Journey