I hope I did not make anyone feel uncomfortable with my voyeurism! For me, I had been struggling with this nightly hugging conflict with H that was driving me crazy (basically having to beg for a hug)and found strength and support from the principles of SSM and PM ( which I learned about here) and by seeing I was not alone in these ridiculous battles for intimacy. The good news is that I have held my ground and H has come around to offer genuine, heartfelt and comforting hugs these last few nights. It may not sound like much, but it is a start. Thank you all for sharing your journeys so openly... I am sure there are many others " in the shadows" who are benefiting from this forum.