I know I need to focus on me.

But inside this still hurts so bad.

I am trying really hard not to focus on it or even really to think about it.

I am probably going to eventually break down and have a good cry. I haven't done that yet. Been really trying super hard to hold myself together.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"