Have lots of thoughts just all scrambled in my head. Hoping writing them out will help them be clearer.
CHL: I have a feeling he is more mixed up and emotional than I ever realized. If he figures himself out I now belive it isn't going to be quickly.
I would still like to be together but not until he has himself sort of lined out.
Based on the thought that he isn't going to figure out what he wants anytime soon. I believe I need to just move on, try to find a house for the kids and I and start enjoying our lives again.
Our Home: I don't believe I can get another loan as long as I am on this house mortgage. Am wondering about if I find a house I would like to make an offer on seeing if CHL will just buy me out of this house. Or even making that suggestion when he comes over to work on it and that I pay rent till I find a house to move into. Wondering if he will go for any of those ideas. I think that is the only way I can get another mortgage. Didn't think of that problem when we were at the settlement. But maybe something can be worked out, not sure.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
