I didn't know if I did or didn't want to start another thread. It was sort of appropriate that the other one ended the day the settlement was agreed upon.

I decided I would totally miss you guys too much if I didn't start a new thread.

This afternoon I have been feeling panic. I am not sure why, I think because the previous agreement gave me a bit of a safety margin. I had insurance, could stay on the Zoloft for a while, get my dental taken care of and the new glasses I need. Plus I had 45 days to decide if I want this house and then we would discuss selling it.

Now things have been really speeded up. It has to be ready to go on the market in 30 days and I only have 90 days to get out of it. No insurance and not nearly as much equity out of the house when it does sell to put into a new home for the kids and I.

I know I need to start looking at the positives rather than the negatives.

Since I know it I will probably do it soon. But this has just sort of been a down time sort of day.

I looked up my Cainercast for today. It says a lot and yet it doesn't. But the part about in the real world there will always be uncertainties hit me, I like assurances and absolutes. That is why I try to manage things and keep them in line I think. So realizing that nothing is certain and that I need to loosen up and relax I hope to find helpful for my future.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"