As things seem to improve as contact between NG and OW seems to have ceased I find myself scratching at him harder. This too is down to rising expectations and I wish I could get a better grip on them. For the last 2 days off and on we have been discussing the END of A and I find myself unable to stop pushing for more. Stupid questions like if he had the time again what would he do differently? Why do I not just keep my lips zipped?
This is basically my struggle. Understanding the concepts catching myself when I'm going wrong but just not always having the emotional strength to do the right thing. Usually to just keep quiet. I need to get beyond knowledge and to do this. I think I need to set up practice sessions. Break down these issues tackle them myself or if I really need a change in NG make it easy for him.
Time to also go back to my basics I seem to have misplaced my goals. Slowly
