Thanks so much for the continued support. Ya know, about a year and a half ago I honestly thought that I was on my way to saving my M, while it seemed that your sitch was way beyond repair. I guess I was fooled.....I am still amazed that you were able to pull your M back together.
I have been thinking about "resentment" lately, and I think I am very guilty of it. I do try to let it go, but once in awhile it just overwhelms me. So, on to the detaching so H doesn't affect me so much.
I am still just dumbfounded by the inconsistencies that H shows. H didn't even say "boo" to me tonight at supper unless I asked him a direct question, yet he helped clean off the table and rinsed and then handed me the dishes to put in the dishwasher. H then headed to the office for a couple of hours. When he came back I was working in the basement and didn't see H. But, he went to the kitchen and made popcorn, filled me a bowl then unloaded the dishwasher. What is so baffling is that until the last few months H had rarely touched a dish let alone rinse them or unload the dishwasher. If he is so ready to split why in the world is he being so nice about some things. (Of course I have been almost religious about constantly doing nice, thoughtful things for H).
I can't see myself coming right out and asking H to make a choice. What I can see is me laying down certain conditions until H feels he is forced to make a decision. I am not sure if that is the right thing to do, but it is the direction things are headed.
I have been very tolerant and have given H plenty of rope to do what he wants, but I am finding that to save my own sanity that I am slowly but surely tightening that rope in the hopes that H will make a decision. It just seems that at this point in time any decision is better than no decision at all.
