Kelli,

How about giving me some clues as to what you did to get H back? I have always felt that our H were alike in a lot of ways but I just chalked that up to the whole military experience. But, it was almost freaky when you mentioned that your H also spoke to son before you, and then did the whole renting apartment thing. Not to mention being very slow in making decisions.

Since H returned home 3 weeks ago I do seem to have a new sense of inner peace. I am sure it has something to do with H actually still being in our home but that is not all of it. For the couple days that H was moved out and I did not hear from him, I cried my eyes out but at the same time I felt a burden lifting from my heart.....and my heart still feels good. I think it was very much an acceptance that, no, I do not have a bit of control over H's actions, only my own.

Even though H has been home for 3 weeks now, I feel deep in my heart, that he will me moving out. And while that still hurts deeply I am not consumed with grief. As a matter of fact, I was in the garden this morning and H came out and said he was going to the office and to get a haircut and some other running around. Since he took the pickup I am 100% certain that the "other running around" is to move furniture into his trailer. And that is OK. H has to do what he has to do.

Things have been good between us the last few weeks, and if that is what I am left with, well, it is better than the tension.

See if you can believe this one. H called me in the middle of teaching class yesterday to say that he had stopped at a garage sale on his way to his trailer to check his mail. There was a Bowflex for sale and since he knew I had mentioned wanting one, he was wondering whether to buy it. I told H that I had wanted one and that S15 would probably really like it. H said he would not buy it unless it was something that I was going to use.....I told him I would so it was in our garage when I got home. How considerate and thoughtful was that???? And this from a guy who is planning on leaving????

And about the flirting....I have been working that in lately. I had worn a short skirt yesterday and still had it on when H came home. We were then out looking at the Bowflex and I was trying all the exercises...so of course the skirt got hiked quite high.. At one point I was trying the leg curls and H actually grabbed by ankles and was showing me where to put them. Things were great....but about that time SIL and a friend walked in....so it spoiled the mood. But yes, there has been some flirting going on on both sides and that has been nice.

There is just some stumbling block that H can't seem to get around and for the life of me I don't have a clue what it is.

Wishing