Raindeer,

Actually, I have known for a long time that H wants to make my life as comfortable as possible when he is gone. Not only was it the life insurance this morning, but tonight H had someone out to give us an estimate on having the driveway redone. I was thinking just a regular cement driveway. But H had the guy come into the house and show the dozens of different options, and H even made a copy of the patterned driveway that I liked.

I think that making our home as comfortable as possible somehow helps to ease the guilt H has over leaving. Geez, if nothing else, I guess that I am going to have an awesome house no matter what the outcome.



There was just one bad moment tonight. H is putting a lot of $ and time into fixing up our 4x4 and made a comment tonight that he is putting extra into it so that I would have a vehicle to drive if the weather gets bad this winter. So far H seems to want to make sure that I am taken care of. I also noticed that the timeline H gave me last night for fixing it up would have had it done by Sat. But since he didn't work on it much last night and not at all tonight, that timeline has been extended to some time next week. H only asked to stay here until Fri. night so it will be interesting to see what happens.

One other interesting thing is that I noticed that today H started putting his dirty clothes down the laundry chute. I guess he feels comfortable enough to go back to the status quo?


I had a nice evening with H but am scared to death whenever we are alone....I am so scared of any R talks. Maybe that is how the WAWs normally feel around the LBS??

Wishing