Quote: So don't stress too much about what H says - well, don't show the stress.
Much easier said than done!
Since H came back Fri. night I have not brought up him moving out or any form of R talks. As a matter of fact I am always kind of nervous when it is just H and I because I do not want to talk about R. I would much prefer to just go on as we are now.
Things just don't add up to H deep-down, honestly wanting out of this M. We met with our insurance agent this morning and H is having him look into more life-insurance on himself. H was telling the agent that if something happened to him that he wanted there to be enough insurance $ to replace his salary for the forseeable future. I don't think there are many H that are planning on a D that also are going to make sure their W is taken care of in case they die.
H was home for lunch again today and I actually felt like we were a team when going over the kids' schedules and planning stuff. H also was sharing highlights of his farm magazines with me as I was finishing up lunch and joking around about some of the junk mail he received. Very nice!
Even though my M basically stinks, I am one of the lucky ones whose H is very concerned and involved with the kids (well, I should say 3 of the 4 kids since D23 has never had anything to do with him). His relationship with the kids was on the rocks for a few years but he has more than gone out of his way to mend those relationships this past year. No matter what happens between H and I, I do know that he will chose to be very involved with the kids and for that I am thankful.
