Life just keeps going on....some ups, some downs, and a lot of standing in one place.
I have spent an incredible amount of time with H the past few weekends either in motels or traveling since S14 has swim meets on weekends. There has been no change except for my frustration building.
I am so tired of H showing such care and concern with all the other women and laughing and carrying on conversations with everyone, and then when he is with me he initiates no conversation. Last night was the final straw. We went to my nieces 5th birthday party, and you would have thought I had lice or something. H totally ignored me, wouldn't even sit by the kids and I throughout the whole evening and was as nice as pie to everyone, but not a word to the kids or I.
It was an hour ride home, and I tried to carry on a conversation for the first half of the ride, and then gave up and we rode the rest of the way in silence.
When we got home and the kids were out of the room, I told H that I needed him to start sharing some of his life with me. (For several weeks now H has been planning a big conferece in town next week along with BIL being here for another couple of weeks, and only just told me about it last night after I was asking some questions about H's work). I told him that not talking to me made things seems like a big secret, and that I knew he was good at keeping secrets. (Heck, he kept OW a secret for 2 1/2 years!!!!) H did not say a word, but fixed himself a drink.
I waited a few minutes for H to make any comment, and when he didn't I finally told him that he either needed to start working on repairing this M or move out.
H again made no comment so I went and took care of the bunnies. H then went to the living room, watched tv, finished his drink and went to bed and I haven't seen him since.
