I do feel very positive lately. I'm trying to not be too delusional but I can't believe that H would plan a vacation with me and talk about selling apt if he were still planning on leaving.
Yes, I took over 'his' side of the bed, and I'm not sure I want to give it up. The dogs, Bud and Sparky, generally take up the rest of it and they've become accustomed to having it. He may just have to fight them over the space if he wants to come back.
I still have a natural tendency to control, and constantly have to remind myself to let things just be, but I like it. I think I could become very used to being 'not responsible'.
