I hear you "loud and clear" this is really tiresome but then I that's what the "old timers" have been telling us. I can't believe how many times I can go from I give up - to - I'm hanging in there. If I can change my mind (and I still have the ability to think) I hate to wonder how many "ups and downs" he's having (since it's obvious he's totally lost his reasoning ability).
I think you are right in that for now they just really like us. It's up to us to make sure that "really like" turns back into love. That is if we can hold out that long. I know at the beginning of this I was willing to wait a year or so. But, that year has come and gone and I feel like we've gone backward and that's frustrating me a lot. My guy also "slips" in the " little reminders" of what isn't going to be and I just feel like smacking him!
The only thing that keeps me from just giving up is I really do think they are in pain. They are lost and aren't sure about anything. So, they are "running in place" trying everything to make the pain go away. Well, everything except face it and deal with it "head on".
I'm better today - hope you can get your PMA back up. I'm beginning to think it's easier with him not here since I don't expect anything from him when I can't see him. In some ways you have the "harder road" seeing him but not being able to touch. That's really hard I know!
