Wish my H's LL was physical touch - he's just the opposite except when we were first dating and newly married. Funny though, in all the years we've been married, he never minded holding my hand in public, until bomb. I haven't had the nerve to try since then. My IL's used to make fun of us and call us the 'lovebirds'. I often wished I could tell them how wrong they were, and how little was going on in private. So, I guess I'll take it very slow if he moves back in while they're here.
Here's the ultimate kick in the a$$ - the first day/night they are here, when I presume he'll be sleeping in our room, is our 14th Anniversary! I'm wondering if anyone is even going to remember this other than me. I can just see it now - we'll be sharing a bed for the first time in 6 mos, he'll probably be fearing I'm going to get the wrong idea and that I'll start something, and I'll lean over and say 'Happy Anniversary, Sweetie, Goodnight'. How pathetic.
Even though things were going really well before he left, it was probably vacation anticipation. But, he called again last night, that's 3 calls in 3 nights so we're batting 100%. I did make a little slip though while on the phone. We got talking about seeing more of the West, and I mentioned my friend in CO has invited us several times to their house in Breckinridge, and said maybe we could go sometime. I'm afraid I heard some real hesitation in his voice and some stumbling in his answer, along the lines of a 'yeah, we could' sort of automatic response. Could have kicked myself, and now I'm just hoping he's forgotten I said it.
When the IL's arrive next week, I might as well just close my eyes and ears because for sure none of his behavior while they are here will be any indication of reality. He puts on an incredible show in front of them - I realize now that's what he was taught to do by them since childhood. At least after last Thanksgiving's performance (just days before the bomb) I know not to get my hopes up about his behavior while they're here. You should have seen the cheerful husband performance then, holding my coat at the restaurant, helping around the house - I thought it was the sign of a great turn in our relationship. What a sap I was. This time I'm just going with the flow and not believing anything I see.
