Thank you Job! We had an amazing Christmas with my in-laws. They live about 3 hrs away and my fil doesn’t get around so well anymore. So it was nice to have them here and spoil them!
Lots has happened. But yet not a lot. Thanksgiving with my dad was amazing. My h was so helpful getting things together. Oldest D’s boyfriend went with us and my dad really liked him.
Car issues…again. Issue with the engine that they couldn’t pin down. I wasn’t really comfortable getting a “new” (used) car because if things go down I don’t know what I can afford. Probably the closest we’ve come to an R talk since June. He insisted I get the car I really want and that I couldn’t keep driving the car I had since we don’t know the problem. I went with it and I love my new car.
H has been very helpful with Christmas. Almost that I don’t recognize things. Going shopping, getting stocking stuffers. I’m very thankful for the help and I tell him that but in the back of my mind I cant help but think he just feels guilty. Who knows. D(19) called him out in front of his parents about never being home. Which of course he got defensive about. She’s not wrong.
Future plans are being made which is confusing. Plans with d(18). Plans for my bday. Limbo. I continue to peel back the layers of myself in coaching. Things I had tucked away and thought I was over. Not too big of things but enough to realize it affects my thoughts and actions and gives me better insight.
Keep on keeping on and doing my best to be grateful for what I have. Making myself happy for me. Trying to be my best, for me. It’s hard to believe it’s almost been a year since bd.
I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and wishing you all a Happy New Year.
