Thank you for your response, and the kind reminder to keep expectations at 0. It is an awful, malfunctioning carousel crammed into a rollercoaster car to be on but there is comfort in the fact that I'm not alone on the ride.
In some ways I do feel like its a positive baby step in that he's seemed to be softening over the past week. Reaching out to me more, hanging around for a little bit when he dropped the dog off after I got back from my work trip, an ongoing text conversation that has spanned the last few days. We take our time to respond back and forth to each other, but the fact that he hasn't just ignored it like he has in the past is a small win. Today I choose to be grateful for that.
