I went away on a work trip for a few days. It was actually a relief to be away from home, and the thoughts that constantly plague me about my marriage. He came to drop my dog off the day I got home from my trip, and that was nice. No conversations about the R. Just pleasant, small talk. He told me he loved me. Two days later he called me while I was at work. Completely caught me off guard because I was not expecting any type of communication from him. I did answer because I thought maybe something was wrong, but turns out he had called just to tell me he loved me and was thinking about me. We had a pleasant 5 minute conversation and laughed together a few times. I want to hate how much it brightened my day, but I don't. I do hate how hopeful I can feel myself start to get after interactions like this. Like maybe he's gaining some clarity, but I'm trying to temper any hope and just let things be what they are - a nice conversation & nothing more. I know he has no intentions of coming home any time soon, & just thinking about that makes me feel like I'm spiraling.
