Journaling: As much as I miss him and want things to work out, I'm angry today. He hasn't once taken accountability for his role in all of this.
Be aware that’s unlikely to ever happen.
I’m six years post bomb-drop with a WAW who has since moved house 7 times, had several new men, and spent every waking minute trying to defame me on social media - despite her initiating an affair and then cleaning out the house and kids.
And not once has there been a shred of remorse or self realisation.
People who decide to rip their family apart want it to be someone else’s fault, and they’ll play all sorts of mental gymnastics to convince themselves and others it was your fault.
My advice - you need to get yourself to a position where you don’t need him to take accountability. Accept it’s likely never going to happen, and then you won’t waste time thinking about it.