It all seems so easy when written down, lol but bloody hell its hard.
I just cant stop thinking about her, wondering how her days been, is everything ok with her and her kids, how is my dog doing, its just constantly in my head.
I wonder if she's missing me or is she just living her best life and I don't even cross her mind anymore.
Then I wonder am I just trying to cling onto the slightest bit of hope. Is it really a mid life crisis. Is it that she's just snapped and is a walk away wife that can hardly ever be recovered. How much is the menopause or her bipolar affecting the situation. Its all just to confusing to me to get my head around.
All I know is that I tried my best but I see with my work why she felt neglected. I ended that in March but to be told its to late, the damage has been done just shatters me. If someone said to me the day before BD your wife is leaving you tomorrow I just wouldn't have believed them. And if they said shes going to do all what she's done since that day I would of laughed in their face and told them they really don't know my wife. Even to where she has stopped me seeing my dog, never in a million years would I have believed she is that type of person.
