WAW to MLC XH bookends (it's complicated!)

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Yes. Absolutely. Depression can affect one’s mind is some wild ways. Forgetting events. Or denying events, which is more likely. Part of grief. In time, denial gives way and events are “remembered”. Then those memories, events, etc can be processed.

Thank you for confirming that! He had me doubting my memory and insisting that I was gaslighting him. I know when my anxiety is high, I'll forget conversations, but I don't forget days...depression is a powerful thing!

XH is pretty unstable at the moment. Was the time in June an actual attempt at reconciliation? Perhaps. However, if it was it was likely throwing off course due to uncle’s death. The mix up with your friend obviously pushed XH away as well.

Detachment still going.... it is rough, because the only way I can gauge how he's doing is by listening to his voice when he calls. The last two calls he sounded downright exhausted. All small talk, but he's still trying to keep in touch.

I'd not say it’s thrown in the trash. XH has slide back. And you have an opportunity to sort out your side of the street. Being a lighthouse for ...

I am very excited, but a little weary, because I have my first meeting with my new therapist tomorrow...my old one went to a new job and the clinic didn't get me a new one.... as well as my first grief counseling session! Thankfully I don't work on Tuesday, because man that is one intense digging day!

I appreciate your answering my questions... as someone who has never suffered from depression, but been raised around, over, and under it, I am trying to understand from their point of view.