Grief and Gratitude, Grok - (A) Rise

[grok]

Hey G!

Hey yourself! I SEE you MamaG.

It's been a week since you noticed mold. Hoping that it was purely surface damage and nothing more.

So far that is what I see. Still haven’t pulled up the carpet. Sigh. Tools on hand weren’t sufficient to remove the baseboards without damage. A stop by the store to get the right tool… but then D20 gave me the cold she brought home and I napped most of the weekend. And XW’s 5x5x8 foot tower-o-stuff I had in the corner is now piled on the other side of the living room to give working space (the rest takes a third of the garage).

I was going to post an update on my thread but chose to leave it here. It's eerie how similar my journey and your journey seem to be. Pretty consistently.

I’ve thought a lot about this … the natures of mars and venus, mid life transition becomes instead -> Crisis (MLC), trauma reaction to betrayal, sorting through what is real and what was false, and more. Upon similar inputs… the arc is … well, you see it and noted it in one of my previous posts using songs as the journey stages.

Homeownership. It is the American dream. A dream I've enjoyed. A dream I've outgrown. It can be overwhelming. Little things and big things seem to surface regularly. I, too had to fix (proudly on my own) the drip pan to the AC. It was not automatically emptying as it is set up to do. A little ChatGPT and voila, it was back in action.

Called the irrigation person (after trying), the garage door person (after trying), and plumber (after trying) in the last couple weeks. Picked up a circuit breaker that I may attempt replacing with my son this weekend. We'll see how that one goes. Hoping your newly learned skills are going better than mine are.


This was a lesson I had learned from my dad. And why previously I always had houses under 15 years old. Though here I am stuck, for most of the last 20 years, with low interest rate handcuffs and an area that ended up having very poor house value growth. Floor plan is Great though.

Careful with that circuit breaker. Live electric circuits are no joke. The replacement itself though is straightforward remove fasteners and replace fasteners.

Myself? Drywall? Ha. Yes, I could, roughly, …. but I know the skill needed to make a patch smooth and match paint. Ones I would need lost of practice to do well.

And then there are the adult kids. Seems yours are leaning on each other too. They're fostering a relationship that will grow. There's nothing like siblings.

So I have tried extra hard to foster that here. Especially over the last few years. Adult… yes sort of? D20 and friend laughed and shook their heads at me the other day. I called them “Mini - Adults”. I had to think what I meant. They can do things. They also lean on me a lot. The world is complex and it can scare them. I’ll do it with you and back you up. is my response.

Hope you had a better weekend this go around.

Thanks! The naps helped. And lemon tea with honey and bourbon. Try it and I hope it makes your weekend better too!

Now off to bed and up early. Work calls with a morning flight for a trip back to San Diego this week. Was it your S out there?

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Continuing in a harder trend… sometimes to express the pitch darkness … but … to … feel and let go.

Grudge - Tool

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate
Desperate to control all and everything
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen

….

Give away the stone
Let the oceans take and transmutate
This cold and fated anchor
Give away the stone
Let the waters kiss and transmutate
These leaden grudges into gold

[Outro]
Let go, let go, let go, let go