Thursday of vacation and it’s been awesome. Been trying to give myself the appropriate places to cry but now that we are starting to do some lasts for me it’s getting harder and harder. Kids have been talking about all the generations that will come here and I’m so glad they will still have that but it makes me so sad as well. Going to try to stay positive and make the most of every moment. When we leave I’ll have all three kids in the car with me ( d19’s boyfriend is with us) I just pray I don’t lose it.