Sorry to hear about your hand. Hopefully your injured finger heals quickly.
It is interesting how H took you to the hospital and remained there with you. Another insight into the duality (or more) and confusion he is living.
Originally Posted by bkerchik
I had dinner with my good friend that completely gets what I’m doing. One of the few that know anything is going on. She’s amazing. She asked some good questions that I’ve actually been pondering. How long can I go on like this. I said at least until the end of summer and then we’ll see. Honestly I don’t know. She also asked what I would do if he truly is having an affair. Again, I don’t know. Depends on the circumstances and his reaction? I don’t know. She was happy to hear that if he does change his mind things won’t just go back to status quo. Work needs to be done and things need to be figured out.
Good questions, and good answers. “I don’t know” is a good honest answer. Until you really face something like betrayal due to an affair, you don’t know what you’d do. And even then, it takes lots of time to find your path.
Be gentle on yourself. Give yourself grace. It’s perfectly ok to be uncertain to such, especially while they are still rather theoretical and/or unconfirmed.
Yes, the old status quo will not be resumed. You know, and see this.
I hope your week goes well.
D
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
