Grief and Gratitude, Grok - (A) Rise

[grok]

Hey MamaG, {{hugs}} and seeing again many parallels with your latest post.

Wow, has it been three weeks? Whew! Lots of bits and pieces to tell. XW behaviors and I'll need some feedback... A conversation yesterday resulted in a few "aftershocks" running through me. ... resisting the pull of my melancholy side.

Maybe I'll have the time and energy to tell the tale later this week as I'm on travel again. Clarksville, TN this time. An acoustic sensor that tells the operator what it hears and in which direction it is coming from...

Time and energy... yeah. Some weeks I more just focus in with me and mine. Sometimes not more to give...though I know I can't stay there. I met in person for a bit with the church pastor again and filled him in on how things were going since we last talked in person more than six months ago. As we talked I realized 80%+ was about my three children...when he pointedly asked, "G, but what about YOU? What can I do to help?"

I thought a bit. Peopling is needed. Especially building a wider net of men around me. So he introduced me to a member who has a motorcycle shop and a group who go riding at least once a month.

Now for the motorcycle. I did get the helmet and gloves after all. Perhaps it will be part of my ocean...

Some Say the Ocean - The Hip Abduction

Well I’m dreamin’ of a place far away
There’s something calling my name

And my heart is losing touch day by day
Need more than just an escape

Far from the city and dread
Somewhere that time don’t change

Some say the ocean
Under endless skies
Will bring you back to life
For the rest of time

Some say the ocean
Helps leave it all behind
Can even free your mind
A soul unconfined

give it a listen and let the feels flow out

g

ps. a reggae spin now. It started when the children and I went to the beach for the first time this year. Though I end up with diverse playlists. Mountain biking Saturday in the mid-day heat, 94F and 99% humidity, to a playlist Spotify generated and called: techno house balinese ibiza island music beach reggae local boating roots hippie

sometimes I have to laugh and roll eyes at myself