Well I made it through our 25th wedding anniversary. I cried pretty much everywhere I could without being seen. Nothing was said. Just a day. I expected that. Kids either didn’t remember or didn’t say anything. I’m Shute there are cards in the mail. I’m not checking the mail. It’s hard knowing that was once such a big deal is now just another day.
Interesting insights since my last post an some questions…
1. I realized that the only time this weekend that h tried arguing with me he was drinking. Which he’s been doing a lot. I know shocker. Otherwise he is just his normal self, like nothings changed.
2. The wine is now home. Do I drink it? I really don’t want to but I kinda do. But I don’t want to make a big deal out of it.
3. I went to clean the drain (D’s hair, you know what I’m talking about) the other day. This is usually h’s job. Well I’m not waiting around for him to do things anymore. I’m just doing them. He’s says what are you doing I can take care of that. (In a nice voice) I said well you’re busy. He says that’s silly let me do this. What’s gotten into you lately? Hmm okay.
4. H says he’s staying the summer. That means that we go on family vacation together. It’s going to be so hard going there knowing I might never have that again. Anyway, it’s still over a month away, but some things like boarding the dog need to be done now. Do I bring it up? Do I just take care of it like I always would? The cabin we stay at doesn’t have everything we need so we have to take a lot with us. I usually do all that packing. Do I tell that h that it’s on him now?
