I'm happy to report that we have made some major progress even though the divorce papers have been filed and there's still one paper that needs to be notarized. He told me that today.
We went to our friends' housewarming party today. They had a tarot card reader and I really wanted to get a reading. She basically told me that my career and finances were going to get better. That I am going through a change but it will all be alright. Including my relationship. I told her that my husband had filed for divorce, and the lover's card was right there front and center. She said it was going to work out.
My husband was curious what she said. I told him I didn't want to tell him because I didn't want to scare him, but he insisted. So I told him. He said he was glad I got a good reading and that it was going to work out. That we live together and we're friends. To which I replied, "just friends?" in a sad tone. He said, "come on, we're more than just friends." I couldn't believe what I heard. I started getting emotional and he put his arm around me and rubbed my back and kissed me.
I have been working diligently to change what made him come to the divorce decision and he's noticed. I'm being more attentive to his needs, and he's been opening up to me and venting to me. He was afraid I was going to fight him about the divorce and how to divide everything and I didn't. Our sex life is better than it's ever been. I have no clue why he still wants to move forward with it, but there's still 6 months before it's final, so hopefully once I start getting more hours at work and he sees that I can be more independent he'll put a stop to it. I know that I caught him off guard with my changes so it's understandable that he needs time to process everything to possibly go back on his decision to divorce. Honestly I'm not afraid he's going to "leave me" anymore, but it sure is nice to have married couple benefits, especially medical. It's going to be super stressful having to find new doctors and paying higher premiums and possibly copays. I've always had medical insurance through the military since I've been in the US, so I have no idea how all the others work.
