It’s been a little over a week since H came to me and said he wouldn’t be leaving until July. This morning I come downstairs to grab some breakfast. H is down there. He’s up early. I wish I could remember exactly what he said, but I think it was somewhere along the lines of “I want to run something by you”. Okay. He tells me that he wants to wait until after the summer is over to move out and he is going to try to get out of his lease. He’s asks if that’s okay. I said yes. He said that everything little thing about the kids and their questions about this summer is really stressing him out. Asking about vacation, the 4th. He said every time something like that comes up it stresses him out. And again, how do I tell them. He says he’s thinking about the family. The kids, our parents, but not once are the two of us mentioned. I told him it was no problem if he stayed it was his decision when he leaves. He said he wanted to make sure it was okay, cause I could just want him out, said he didn’t know. I said no I’m not kicking you out. This is fine.
And just earlier in the morning I thought it was weird because I noticed him saying “we” more often and that it’s weird that he is willing to meet with the guy to fix our ac. All things like that house related I’ve had to do cause he’d kinda been checked out if living here.
I almost brought up our m during this conversation but I stopped myself. Even if I was to bring it up he was definitely not in a good place to talk about it this morning. And I told him last week that my position hasn’t changed. I didn’t want to keep bringing that up. I really don’t know what to make of any of this and I really don’t want to read anything into it. Don’t know if I even believe it. Is he saying these things to see if I keep up my changes? No expectations right? I’m thinking i continue on as I have been. Working on myself, no R talk. But I’m very confused.
