I had some kind of hope since he was still willing to have sex with me. I was pretty much throwing myself at him any chance I could, till he refused me on Sunday night, saying he didn't feel good about it. That he tried to feel something but he can't. I was devastated. I told him I'd back off so I haven't tried to touch or kiss him at all yesterday. He's also said before that he felt like I was trying to manipulate him with my changes and I said I wasn't, I was just hearing what he said and wanted to change things for the better. I'm basically at The Last Resort Technique right now, and it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
